On Monday we went for our first ultra sound finally! I was so excited and so nervous I had bad dreams all night. At first everything went smoothly. I can't explain the feeling I got when I first saw my little baby in there. She/he was moving around & we could see their little heart beating so fast. I couldn't stop smiling and laughing I was so happy, but you can't laugh or it messes up the ultra sound! I wanted to cry the whole day because I was so happy. I could stare at the pictures of her/him all day.

During the middle of the ultra sound the tech said I'll be right back and left the gel on my belly... I started to get worried and when she brough the doctor in I was very worried, and then when he asked if he could talk to me in front of my family I just wanted to die! I thought something was terribly wrong. He took a look himself and showed us we have a fetus, but there was also another sac that was empty. My pregnancy started out as twins, but sometime (most likely in the very beginning) it just didn't make it. I was very sad, but happy for the baby I do have. It is crazy to me I could have had ferternal twins. Because one baby didn't make it I'm now high risk and have to go back on November 27th for all day extensive blood tests and ultra sounds to see if there is anything wrong with baby. I think baby will be fine, but they just have to be cautious. Everything I have read said it's so common for one twin not to make it early and the other to be just perfect. We are all praying for a healthy baby!

I can't express the love I feel for my child already. I knew I loved them, but after I saw them jumping around in there and saw their heart beat I just fell into a deeper love than I ever thought possible. The heart rate was 174 so my mom thinks it's a girl... I kind of do too, but it could be either! Austin thinks she/he has my turned up nose though... I wouldn't mind! :) Our baby is the most beautiful thing I have ever laid eyes on, thinking about it makes me want to cry because the surge of emotions is so crazy. I'm so happy and blessed for this little life growing inside me. One month and we will know if baby is a boy or girl! I can't wait!