May 3, 2013 12:01 pm
7lb 6oz 19.5 inches long
The entire week before giving birth I felt totally awesome. I did not feel like I would be having a baby anytime soon. I had energy (for the most part) & my body wasn't nearly as achy as it had been the past few months. We walked every night, but I knew he would come when he was ready. I decided most likely he would come when we induced. The day before induction Austin took off work and we had our last little outing. We went to the aquarium & to lunch. Then we went home to relax. Relaxing was the last thing on my mind, I was so anxious so I cleaned... we went to bed around 11, but I don't think I slept more than 30 minutes. Austin woke up at 2am shaking like crazy & really cold. GREAT! I thought it was just nerves so I covered him up with more blankets and we both tried to go back to sleep. I couldn't... I got up at 3:30 to take my shower. At that point I had some contractions, but they weren't strong or regular. I woke Austin up at about 3:50ish and he was feeling miserable :( He was having bad tummy problems. Keep in mind I have only seen Austin sick once in my life... so for him to be sick on the day of delivery was really awful! We loaded up our bags in the car (which we were so excited to pack full of cool things) we loaded babies diaper bag & his carseat. We were ready to go! We left the house at about 4:25.
We arrived the hospital and got admitted at 4:53 am! So early, but I was ready. I was so beyond nervous having no idea what to expect. We waited in our room until about 5:45 for the nurse & I guess there were two of us getting induced at the same time so thats why I had to wait..oh well. Well she put my IV in and it was SO TERRIBLE!! She hurt me so bad :( I was trying to stay calm and then I felt blood trickling down my hand & I started to cry. Why are these nurses so bad at IV's?! Well anyways. Then she flushed the blood through and said she would be back with the pitocin. They started the pitocin at a little after 6am, but I'm pretty sure I was already in labor. She checked me and I was dilated to a 4. At this point Austin gave me a letter he wrote to me & I BAWLED MY EYES OUT!! I knew at that point this was going to be the most emotional day of my life. Geez I love that man so much!! Well, luckily shift changed at 7am and I got a new nurse who was absolutely the most amazing lady! At first I wasn't sure, but my gosh she was awesome. She told me my doctor would be in to break my water when she did rounds. Nurse kept coming back asking me if I was ready for the epidural, but I wanted to feel some pain first. The contrations really weren't that bad unless I stood up to pee and then they were strong, but nothing like what I've heard. Finally my nurse came in and said "She will be by to break your water soon, you might want to get the epdirual now" I was SO scared of the epidural, but I agreed. The lady who did my epidural got there quick & Austin had to leave :( He wasn't too happy & I wanted him to hold my hands. Well they got me into position and my awesome nurse held my hand! They told me I'd feel a poke and burning, but all I felt was the poke-not bad at all! They she did what she had to do and I was done. They told me I would be itchy & OH MY GOSH I WAS SO ITCHY!! That was the worst part of my whole labor was the itching. Right when the epidural lady left my doctor walked in to break my water. That was the craziest feeling! I felt and heard a GUSH. Then nurse put a catheter in me & luckily I couldn't really feel it. The weird thing was I could still feel & move my legs. This was around 9:30ish when she broke my water and I was still a 4. About 30 minutes later the nurse said I was a stretchy 5 & was sure we would have a baby soon! Also at this point I had to get benydril for my itching, I knew it would make me sleepy, but I wasn't expecting a baby THAT soon. Well I was wrong!! At this point my mom, aunt, Austins parents, & Austin were in the room with me. I started to feel a lot of pressure with each contraction so I called my nurse in the room. She said "I knew you'd be calling me soon! Those are some strong contractions" She checked me and I was sure I was at about an 8. To my surprise she said "You're there! Lets have a baby!!" OH MY GOSH! I couldn't take it all in, it happened so dang fast. Well she called my doctor and my doctor had 4 patients left to see. About 5 mintues later the nurse called the doctor again and said "Sorry this baby is coming fast you need to come" So luckily my doctor came & it was push time!! Let me tell you, pushing was OUT OF THIS WORLD! At first I was scared to push too hard for a few reasons, & I knew my face looked so stupid, but finally I just knew I had to push with all my might. I started pushing at 11:30am. With each push I had to push 3 times for 10 second each... I felt like every blood vessle in my head was bursting! Austin was such a sweetie, he was rubbing my head and arm telling me "Good job babe you're doing so good!" I never said a word through the whole process, although it was hard it was so incredibly peacful & I loved it. Finally my doctor turned around and got her little tray ready so I knew I was at the end. She came back and said "Okay, I gave you a break, now you really have to push!" While she was getting her table ready I remember telling Austin "This is so painful" He asked me what it felt like and I said welll.... like a head is coming out of my vagina ;) Anywho, one last set of pushes... the hardest pushes of my life and I heard his tiny little sounds... I LOST IT! Started to cry immediately. One more set of pushing and baby was out!! Baby Cohen was born at 12:01 pm. He started to cry and it was the most beautiful sound ever. Austin cut his cord and then they handed him to me. All I could do was look at his beautiful face and cry. I looked over at Austin and he had tears in his eyes. I can say for certain that was the most beautiful moment of my entire life. After a minute the nurse took baby to clean him up and weigh him. Austin got the camera to take pictures and went over to be with baby.
My doctor asked me to push to get the placenta out and nothing happened so she said it just wasn't ready & stiched up my episiotomy. The whole time I was watching my baby & was so happy he was 7lb 6oz... PERFECT!! After she was done stiching me up she asked me to push again... nothing happened. She then pushed on my tummy & still nothing happened. Then she asked me to push while she pulled the cord & the cord snapped... "Oh shit" is what she said & I knew it wasn't good. I looked over and saw the nurse hand Austin our gorgeous baby boy, such a beautiful sight! He brought him over to me and I just watched both of them while my doctor stuck her hand up in there trying to get my placenta out. She finally determined it was not coming out & told me we were going to have to do surgery. That means no golden hour for me and my baby & I would be leaving my family. The doctor left to get prepped & the nurse told us I would be back in 45 minutes. When transport came to get me she told Austin he could come, but the nurse said "Well he's not feeling well" & Austin said "yeah I better not" WHAT!??!! I was so angry. I kissed my husband & my son goodbye and they took me away. Literally the worst moments of my life. When I got down to the OR a guy started asking me all these questions & I told myself I have to stay strong for my son, I'm a mom now and he needs me to be strong. The man then told me they were going to put my completely under... WHAT!? Ugh. Then everyone around me kept saying they couldn't find my signed papers & I heard my doctor say "Well I sure hope she isn't hemoraging!" I then started to pray and pray and pray for my life & that I would make it back to be with my son & my family. I knew God had given me everything I ever wanted and I just didn't think it was fair for me to lose it all now. I needed to get back to my boys, I prayed so hard! When they started to prep me I started to bawl my eyes out. I was all alone and so afraid. The last thing I remember is a guy taking my bra off and then I woke up. HOURS LATER! When I woke up it was about 2:30pm & my throat hurt so bad from the tube they put down it. Then I looked over & they were putting blood into me. They told me I hemmoraged during surgery so I needed blood. I now had 2 IV's, one in each arm. They tried to put the blood into my original IV & it hurt so bad! I remember shaking my head saying no no please no so they put the blood into the other IV. I told the nurse to please tell my husband I'm okay, because I knew he had to be worried. Then I told her I needed to get to my baby. She was so sweet & told me as soon as they put both bags of blood in I could see my son. I kept falling in and out of sleep because of the anesthesia. Finally I watched the last of the blood empty & then she had to put one more bag of fluid to flush it through. She then called post partum & the nurse said I needed to be there for 30 more mintues & they had to check my uterus. When they pushed on me I felt blood just flow, it was so terrible. Finally after they had cleaned me up & 30 minutes had past transport took me up to see my baby. The first person I saw was my mom & we both just bawled. Then they wheeled me into my room and Austin was asleep on the floor (poor guy!) He jumped up and hugged me & then he went to get our baby. 4.5 hours after I delivered my son I finally got to hold him and be with him. He was the most beautiful thing I had ever seen!! Unfortunately at this point Austin was SO sick & the nurse said he better go home to avoid getting baby sick. His lovely momma decided to stay with me & I was SO upset he had to leave. I felt so awful & wanted my family together. A few hours later I got up to pee & OH MY! I almost passed out and threw up at the same time & peeing was the most painful thing. UGH. It was so terrible. Luckily the dizziness got better. Vicki stayed with me until midnight & then my mom came. I wanted the baby in the room with me & he had to be for feeding since I was breast feeding (or trying to) It was a long night & I didn't get any sleep because baby was awake almost all night. So I put him in bed with me and we finally slept for about an hour.
When morning rolled around the nurse was there bright & early to get little man for his circumcision. I had to call Austin because he needed to be there with me for such a big event! (I was very nervous about it!) They took baby for a few hours & when they brought him back they said everything went well. I got to meet his Pediatrician and I really liked him! Austin finally got there to be with me around noon. It was another long day, I couldn't really sleep because I just wanted to enjoy my baby. Austin still wasn't feeling the greatest, but he stayed all day with me & decided to stay the night. At about 2am my hand was on fire! I called the nurse in and my IV had almost slipped out and the fluid had infultrated into my hand so it was so extremely swolen. GREAT! Just what I needed! They were still giving my antibiotics because due to what happened I was at a high risk for infection. Therefor they need to put a new IV in. Well that didn't work out too well! The first girl who tried couldn't get the IV catheter in so she sent someone else in... she failed too... the next girl blew out my vein. Finally a nurse came in and inspected my arms for about 30 mintues to find the right vein. First try.. she failed. 5 fails & I was barely holding it together... when would the nonsense end!? Well she FINALLY was able to get the IV started & that was finally over. It was now about 5am & Austin was in so much pain so he called his mom and she came & he left. I cried :( I tried to sleep & when I woke up I cried more. All I wanted was Austin and I wanted to go home. My doctor came in around 11 & said I got to go home!!! YAY! Best news ever. She gave me a hug & I got a picture of her with baby boy. I called Austin & he was so happy too. 2 nights apart was PLENTY! He came up to the hospital & now all we had to wait for was the pediatrician to release Cohen. He didn't get there till about 4ish so we waited & waited, but that was okay because I knew we'd be home soon. He finally released him & the nurse taught us all we needed to know about baths, belly button care, & wee wee care. We loaded up our precious baby boy & headed home!!
